~ Mimpi ~

4 da 1st tyme, 1st entry in 2013 =)

Not really in mood 2 write in a blog, at this moment, ekceli...Tp since boring punya pasal, maka menari2kan juga la jari ini...Saja nk story a lil bit bout MIMPI...Takde la apa sgt pn..In this week, 2 kali sy mimpi b'komunikasi dgn org yg telah meninggal dunia iaitu arwah mak kwn sy yg meninggal dlm November 2012 n arwah tok sy yg passed away on December 2011...

Dulu2 masa sy still a student (di tempat sy belajar skrg) sy kerap b'tandang ke umah kwn sy yg b'kenaan...My feveret dishes is ikan bakar talapia + air asam...Arwah maknya n ayahnya mmg rajen melayan kehendak sy...Mmg sy takde juadah lain yg diingini...Ada hari sy dtg, ada rezeki...Ada hari sy dtg seprais, takde rezeki...Tue la padahnya takmo bgtau awal2, kn...Apa pn, masa dh b'lalu...Setelah kwn sy b'kawen, sy dh tak lagi m'jengah ke umah tuh sbb canggung...Baru2 ni sy mimpi arwah mak dia (masih hidup) n buatkn sy air asam...Tp air asam tuh tak siap2 pula..Dok proses apa kt sinki pn sy taktau..Last2 sy t'sedar dr mainan tidur...

Masa qailulah tghari td, sy mimpikn arwah tok..Dlm mimpi, tok begitu ramah sekali dgn sy sdgkn tok sy jenis yg p'diam n tak byk ckp..Tok begitu b'semangat sekali nk ikut sy blk Ipoh..Semasa di alam mipi, sy b'tanya kpd diri sy sendiri...How come sy bley comunicate dgn tok sdgkn tok dh meninggal?Sy menangis dlm mimpi n bygn tok pn ilang...Lantaran i2, sy terus t'sedar n air mata sy penuh dlm kelopak mata...

Barangkali ke2-2 petanda ini meminta doa sy utk mereka di alam sana...Semoga tenang sume roh di sana...22+ thn yg lalu ketika arwah tokwan kembali ke rahmatullah, tok m'jadi murung n tak lalu mkn selama bberapa bln...Sy pn rindukn arwah tokwan yg suka melayan cucu2...W/pun hanya seketika cuma kesempatan b'samanya...Al-Fatihah!

B'alih kpd cite lain pula, lately sy kerap mimpi psl makanan sesaje...Dr sblm kawen lagi m'idam nk mkn Crisp versi cuka yg dibeli di Manchester tp sampai ke hari ni tak dpt2 lagi...Takde 1 pn snack yg menyerupai keinginan sy nih...Tak sangka plak suami juga suatu ketika dulu sukakn snack yg sama...Nampak sgt meniru sy...Tp mmg sedap la...Masam2 gitu...Ble la agaknya diorg kt cni nk produce snack perisa gitu?Dh lama sy sabar menanti...

Last wikend masa suami pulang, katanya ada kemungkinan beliau tak dpt pulang ke pangkuan sy pd wikend kali ini...Secara spontan, laju je air mata mengalir sebaik beliau melafazkn kata2 sedemikian rupa...Air mata m'iringi lambaian beliau krn tak pasti lagi sama ada next wikend akan ketemu or tak...Dr hari ke hari, sy masih m'harap agar suami dpt pulang ke pangkuan sy pd wikend ni, namun sy hampa...Mlm td tidur b'temankn air mata n bangun pg dgn mata yg bengkak...

Seusai solat Subuh, sy t'kulat2 tak keruan taktau nk buat apa..Sy pn t'fikir, apasal sume serba tak kena n tak senang duduk...Rupa2nya m'jadi rutin sy pd pg Sabtu utk prepare brekfes n fetch suami di Terminal Bus Station...Tp pd hari ini, tak b'laku pula seperti itu...Selera mkn ilang...Mood & motivasi juga tiada...Terasa spt tak mahu apa2...Mati kutu juga krn taktau nk buat apa...Keje ada bwk blk tp tak t'mampu nk buatnya sbb setting mengatakan arini wikend n it's time 2 spend 4 my husband...Kereta pn dh lama tak t'bela tanpa jagaan n mandian oleh tuan p'jaga...

Ada rasa keuntungan sejak kawen, alhamdulillah car sy dijaga oleh suami...Sblm kawen mmg sy menuju ke carwash n Service Centre je la...Tp now, dibasuh & divakum secara manual oleh beliau...Ditukar ganti apa2 jua alat yg b'kaitan...If ckp kt sy pn setakat masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri...Oil filter, air filter, spark plug, etc. Pendek kata, byk benda yg beliau dh buat utk sy n b'korban utk sy...Terima kasih sang suami!Cumanya sy dileteri krn berat bdn yg susut 1.5kg...Jarang2 sekali susut sebegini...Sy pn tak m'jangka...Menyalahkan penimbang berat pd mulanya...Huhu!~

~ Pain is a test ~

I've went 4 an outstation 2 S/Alam from 11 - 13 December 2012...It's great 4 me 2 b away from normal workplace...I'm tired with all the nonsense @ workplace...I feel like certain party always interrupt my space in order 2 complete my own tasks, planning n schedule...Our motivation is similarly 2 'iman'...It goes up n down...

People always said that u just carried out ur tasks up 2 certain level based on ur 'ability'...When it reach certain point, seems like u cannot bear with it anymore...Recently, I easily get stressed...n due 2 my condition, it's some sort of reason whereby people starts 2 consider my health well-being, insya'Allah...

I alwiz pray n hoping that everything will run smoothly n easily 4 me...Please Allah, only 2 U, I rely on my hopes & U're the Most Understanding n Merciful...I believe that I can't go through all this without His blessings!Thank u Allah!

Back 2 the outstation story, I reached home more or less about 10.30pm (13 December 2012)...I'm very tired at that nyte until I didn't bath or even wash my face...My head was 'heavy'...But I manage 2 woke up early b4 Subuh n get myself bathe...I feel much more better...About 7.30am, I went 2 da Hospital Kangar (walk-in) n make an appointment immediately with my Orinolaringology Medical Officer...I was suffered 2 2 days since I was outstation due 2 the fungus n nanah inside my ear...Alhamdulillah da suffer ended after the Dr. manage 2 pull out the fungus by using the machine...I believe with the technology in Government Hospital...The Dr. was concerned with my health n he referred me 2 the Dermatology Specialist...Alhamdulillah I got the medicine n allergic cream...4 da next meeting, I need 2 bring GL or else I need 2 pay 4 da medical treatment received @ da general hospital...Hoho!Ohhh my goodness, next month (a.k.a next year), I've got 3 appointments with different medical department....zZzZz!~

After settled all those matters, I went back home quickly coz I'm very tired...Different from usual...I nid 2 sleep n rest...I've received an MC from the Dr....Alhamdulillah...Coz I'm very fatigue, painful n flat...Wat a surprise, when I reached home, my husband was there...I'm speechless n canot say anything because of shock, surprised n at da same time, I have no energy...

Allah's plan is the best...He knows the best thing 4 us...I didn't even come across my mind that my husband will come back earlier...n da hikmah is, he is da 1 who took care of me during da weekend where I cannot wake up on my own as well as need him 2 lay on my body during walking...n I pray by 'seating'....I have no energy n just sleeping on the bed...Thank u so much my beloved husband, 4 ur sacrifice n taking care of me...I always pray that whenever I fall sick, let my husband around at dat time n alhamdulillah Allah is the Most Understanding...

If at that time I was being taken 2 da hospital, perhaps I'm gonna b admitted in da ward...Alhamdulillah I already recovered but da pain does not heal 100%...I'm not sure da reason y I'm very 'flatful'...Whether da Iron (200mg - 2 add blood) is already out of stock or because of travelling long distance was tiring...Yesterday, we took a Homoepathy as additional medicine 4 me so that my health will be better...Tonight, my husband already went back 2 his workplace...It's difficult 4 me 2 close my eyes eventhough I'm already sleepy...Deep in my heart, only Allah knows...Alhamdulillah, I manage 2 recover at da moment he is going back...He left with me, his spirit 2 make me become stronger, insya'Allah!

Bebanan Tugas...

Kadangkala terasa malas utk come out dgn new blog entry sbb ada STALKER...I 'dislike' (guna wording molek sket) stalker...Stalker nih ibaratnya 'rambut sama itam tp hati lain2'...Apa yg boleh dikatakan, stalker nih suka amek tau hal org lain ala2 menyibuk2 m'intai gitu...Yg sakit hatinya, psstt2 pd org lain pula sementelah itu...Suka korek rahsia org lain dgn b'tanya kpd org t'dekat...Syukurlah org t'dekat sy bkn jenis yg suka m'buat radio buruk...Sy berasa tak selesa dikelilingi org2 seumpama ini n semakin tawar utk update apa2...

Prihatin?Tidak sama sekali!Org yg prihatin akan approach kita directly...Sentiasa update dgn kita...Mentang2lh sy takde watsapp, p'khabaran sesuatu perkara itu tak pula dikongsi dgn sy tp sebaliknya dikongsi dgn rantaian kumpulan sdgkn sblmnya, dia baik & rapat dgn sy...B'balik kpd entry title di atas, sy rasa muak dgn bebanan kerja yg menyusahkan n motivasi kerap menurun...Sampai bilakh harus dilalui keadaan spt ini?Bknlh sy tak b'syukur dgn rezeki yg sy kecapi pd hari ni...Alhamdulillah atas segala nikmat yg Allah berikan...

Bila dh mixed dgn mcm ragam kerenah punya org, sy rasa mcm nk patah blk masa utk tukar degree field...Dulu ingat seronok mengenali karakter manusia n socialization tp makin hari makin memeningkan pula...Nah; ini la dia dulu suka sgt...HR la katakan...Lambatnya lahai lagi nk PENCEN...Org tua2 yg takmooo pencen tuh, meh la kte switch...

~ Bekam ~

Sy sering mengalami keletihan, mengantuk n tak b'maya...Selain itu, kepala juga kerap pusing2 a.k.a pening...Rasanya ada amek beberapa langkah rawatan, namun masih belum sembuh lagi gejala yg dh lama m'belenggu diri...Sudahnya suami m'cadangkan agar sy m'jalani rawatan bekam yg merupakan sunnah Rasulullah s.a.w...

Ohhh man, mmg dh lama t'fikir tp keberanian nk buat tuh blum ada...Sblm ni hanya 'mampu' tgk org lain je yg buat tp nk buat utk diri sendiri, mmg penakut la...Sy takleh nk bayang dia cucuk2 bdn sy n luka2 yg keluar...Aduhhh sakitnya...Tambah plak dok bayang guna pisau belit/lipat...Ngeri kot!

Namun pd hari itu, sy nekad utk melakukannya...Krn sy udah tak tahan lagi nk menanggung physical yg 'unfit' ni..Lantaran itu, sy pn booked an appointment...Kring3!~Apa yg sy boleh kongsi menerusi info dr makcik bekam, bekam tidak akan dijalankan pd/ke atas:

a) Hari Rabu - Sy tak pasti apa puncanya

b) Sebelum 15hb dlm bln Islam (Menurut sumber, pd 1-14hb adalah ketika mana segala penyakit sdg 'turun'?

c) Wanita yg sdg period/pregnant (If baru sgt abih period pn tak molek juga)

So, sy pn bajet timing baek punya...Pd hari Khamis mlm Jumaat (16 Zulhijjah / 1 November 2012), dgn m'bawa kain batik, sy pn m'jalani rawatan t'sebut...Mmg benarlah, sebaik selesai m'jalani rawatan, sy mmg mengantuk siot!Opsss!!Dilarang MANDI selepas b'bekam...Sok pg baru bath,k?

Masa rawatan sdg dijalankan, cuak kot!(Sbb takut sakit).Bile dia tembak2, alahai sakit lagi kena gigit dgn semut...Tp yg bestnye bila dia sedut darah, rasa mcm sakit2 sbb kulit tegang tp best!Masa tuh sy dh bayangkn ohhh byknya darah b'lumuran di bdn sy. (Sy tak nampak apa yg b'laku sbb ia dibuat pd bhgn blkg bdn sy)

Hasil drpd rawatan, darah sy yg t'kumpul adalah darah yg mengandungi toksin & angin...Warnanya merah hati pekat nk kehitaman...Bentuk cairannya pula lendir likat, nk mcm period wanita...Huhu!~Alhamdulillah kesan drpd m'jalani rawatan, bdn sy terasa lbh 'ringan' n segar =) Tp 4 da 1st tymer/beginner kena la jalani rawatan bekam secara consistent...At least once a month 4 3months consecutively...

Outstation

Ekceli, dis is my 1st tyme trying write an entry blog by using SmartPhone..Currently, I'm @ Concorde Inn Hotel. KLIA Sepang..Outstation, m'cari pengalaman & rezeki..I was departed from Kuantan Airport @ 10.15am n arived @ KLIA Sepang @ 11am..From there, I took a shuttle 2 dis hotel..

Ingatkn arived early bley la check-in early n setel down apa yg patut..Sampai d lobby @ 12pm, sudenly receptionist kta hnya bley check-in @ 2pm..Room is yet available la konon..Menangis jugak la td masa 'tinggalkn' suami..Beliau pn tak byk ckp sgt masa m'hantar sy td..Menyembunyikn prasaan sndiri brgkali..

Everytime I reach KLIA, I like 2 view da screen tv which provide info about "Departure" schedule..Dlm diri rasa 1 keinginan yg m'bara utk traveling a.k.a melancong coz it's my passion from childhood..

Apa pn, canot wait 4 next month..Really exciting n hope everything wil run smoothly as planned, insy'Allah!